Woohoo. Looks like we are moving house soon. Was a tense few days waiting for confirmation bt now all the references have gone through and my current Estate Agent was really helpful. Mind you, she may just want to get rid of me... 🤣🤣🤣Apparently, our prospective landlords rang her up as well, apart from the referencing agency. They also rang up Hari's employer. We thought, at first, that it was somebody trying a scam, having acquired our details somehow from Homelet or the new Letting Agency. Now, we need to get organised and start packing. That's gonna be fun. We have so much stuff. Might be able to get rid of some. Have to check whether the washing machine is okay. My friend wants me to get rid of the fridge and the freezer but they work fine. Also, I don't have the money to buy new stuff. Going to be hard enough to pay for the move.

On another note, this week, last year, Adam was off to his Year 11 Prom and two years ago, Tara was heading for Nepal. Where has the time gone?

So, things got a bit hectic in the last couple of days.

On Friday we went to see a house in Lancaster. It was okay but a bit small. I asked the Letting Agent to show us one I had seen on the website. She was a bit reluctant because it was available for 29 June and we wanted to move in around 22 July. Anyway, she took us over and both of us really liked it. There are 3 bedrooms, a loft, a cellar. all carpeted and tons of storage space. Having talked things over, Hari and I decided to go for it. Yesterday was spent filling in forms... And I went to see my friend Kush, whom I haven't seen for about a year, though he lives in Lancaster. He has been flying over to US for work and been really busy. Good to catch up. And moan. 🤣🤣🤣

The next three weeks are gonna be fun. Packing up and clearing out, making sure the cottage is clean. All help will be gratefully received...

Today is Father's Day. Hari gave me a Stephen King book and Adam gave me a blanket... so I can sleep comfortably on the sofa! tara will be bringing summat from Cambodia. 😼

Next week, I have to let my landlords know I will be moving out. YAY!

I thought I would start writing my blog and try to write a bit most days. I really enjoy writing and I have been neglecting it. I feel unmotivated to write. In fact, I feel apathetic and unmotivated to do anything.

I live in a beautiful part of the country and I have 3 children whom I love. I don't have a job which doesn't help my mental health or my finances. I'd like to help the kids but it's impossible at the moment,,, except for being dad's taxi. 😼I applied for a job which I was encouraged to do by the Head of the school but I don't think I interviewed as well as I normally do. Maybe overconfidence or a lack of practice? I also think there may have been other factors that worked against me here.

I have a relationship which can be described as. complicated. I would like it resolved but there's not a lot I can do unfortunately as my partner has a complicated home life. We also live 80 miles apart so we can only see each other occasionally. We enjoy each other's company and she gets on with the children but we cannot progress unless she resolves her complications.

I like living here but the house is tiny. Also, it's very quiet around here. It was easier in High Bentham as there were always people to see. Going to Booth's to pick up the kids is the highlight of the week....And occasionally visiting the village shop. Not sure how I put up with all the exhilaration! 🤣🤣🤣.

They have just held 72 seconds of silence for Grenfell. 😢

I wish I could motivate myself to do some exercise. I love playing football once a week, wish it was more, Maybe moving to Lancaster will help with that, as well as finances and having things to do.

Anyway, enough moping.

Kids are doing well. Hari is working in Lancaster. Tara is enjoying her Nursing degree, and is currently on placement in Cambodia for two months. Adam, after an unsuccessful start at QES, is now doing an apprenticeship at Specsavers. He is getting bored of people saying "Pardon?" every time he asks them whether they would like to have their hearing tested...🤣🤣🤣

Okay, this will do for today. See you tomorrow.